SPEAK EFFECTIVLY!!

PEOPLE DO HAVE IMPRESSION THAT I CANNOT SPEAK OR WRITE WELL OR EFFECTIVLY!!

....OR DON'T HAVE LEADERSHIP QUALITIES IN GENERAL!!!

THIS IS ONE POINT AGENDA FOR ME TO WORK ON NOW,

....OTHER THEN MANY OTHER WORK,

...I WANT TO BE A ROLE MODEL FOR MY DAUGHTER,CAN'T SAY ABOUT OTHERS!!

GOOD WISHES TO ME!!

(PLZ REMIND ME WHENEVER I TRY TO THINK OR WORK FOR OTHERS...OR COUNTRY...AS I HAD PROMISED TO MYSELF TO WORK FOR SELF TILL ITS VERY IMPORTANT TO INTERFERE IN OTHERS MATTER)NO MORE CRICKET AFTER THIS WORLD CUP FOR ME!!

...AND HAVE TO TRY TO CONTROL ALL MY EMOTIONS INCLUDING ANGER(NOT TO BE LIKE MANOJ BAJPAI OF SHOOL), AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE...NO MORE EVEN ACTING SHACTING WHICH WE DOES AT TIMES....DON'T WANT ANYONE'S "NAMES" GET MALIGN!!....I WISH FOR ALL THAT THEY MAKE PEOPLE AROUND THEM PROUD OF THEM...BUT "DOOSRON KE JAI SE PEHLE,KHUDD KO JAI KARE"...WHICH MEANS PREACH OTHERS LATER, FIRST LEARN TO CONTROL OWN EMOTIONS AND CORRECT THEMSELF IF ANY DEFECT IN ONE'S PERSONALITY IS THERE!!! )

PLZ DON'T REMIND ME IF DEEPIKA DIED IN SOME MOVIE I SHOULD ALSO SAY ADIEU..."AAAP TOO THEE" ABB NAHIN HEIN,YOU'RE FINISHED!!...THESE ARE "MOMENTARY COMMENTS"...IN SOME OR OTHER CONTEXT!!!...AS I HAVE CREATED THIS PLATFORM FOR SELF,WILL WORK WHETHER "ONE THINK I AM DEAD OR ALIVE","ACCEPT IT THAT I AM THERE STILL WORKING AND CONTRIBUTING OR NOT" OR "YOU'RE BETTER OR WORSE THEN OTHERS".HAUSALLA NAHIN TOOTENEIN DENE KA KYA???..RASTE KANTAHEEN HOKER BANNTEI JAYEINGE!!

...EVEN GHARELU WOMEN CAN DO WELL...AFTER MY ENCOURAGEMENT 2YRS BACK MY YOUNGER SISTER HAS GIVEN EXAMS(AFTER LONG GAP) FOR SOME GOVT POST IN HER HUSBAND'S OFFICE...APPLIED,GIVEN WRITTEN TEST,INTERVIEW WHICH SHE QUALIFIED IN FINAL STAGE,BUT HER HUSBAND REFUSE TO DO SHIFARISH(HER NAME WAS IN WAITING LIST)..NOW SHE IS DOING MBA.EVEN MY CHHOTI BHABHI STARTED DOING SOCIAL WORK VOLUNTARILY AND USED TO TEACH DROPOUT KIDS OF MAZDOORS AT CONSTRUCTION SITES WITH HER CMD'S WIFE AND GROUP OF NHPC CLUB...FEW YRS BACK(AT SOORAJKUND SITE/FARIDABAAD)...SHE WAS A SCHOOL TEACHER(D.A.V) BEFORE HER MARRIAGE-I HAD TAUGHT TUITIONS TO DHOBI'S KIDS AT HOME VOLUNTARILY)...NOW SHE IS IN CHANDHIGAARH AND ELDER BRO'S FAMILY HAS SHIFTED TO GREATER.NOIDA

...EVEN DIDI DISLIKED JIJAJI'S KOSHISH OF SOCIAL WORK'S...HIS INITIATIVE SAMANATA OR ACTIVITY FOR YOUTH FOR EQUALITY(EVEN I AM MEMBER OF IT AND SUDHIRJI DO GET INVITATIONS) INITIALLY DURING STAY IN HARIDWAR AS HE WAS DOING FULL TIME WORK BUT HELPED IN HIS WORK AFTER MY SUGGESTIONS.NOW LEFT IT AS THEY SHIFTED TO NOIDA....OR TO MOTIVATING ADITI TO HAVE A GOOD PROFESSIONAL WORK EXPERIENCE BEFORE GETTING MARRIED.AFTER THAT IT WILL BE HER DECISION TO WORK OR NOT.THOUGH I WOULD LIKE HER TO MAKE HER NAME IN LIFE WITH HER QUALITIES AND TALENT.EVEN TO SUDHIRJI TO CONTRIBUTE BACK TO BIKANER- HIS HOME TOWN IN SOME WAY!!...HE DID BY TRYING FOR A TRAIN- DELHI TO BIKANER WHICH WAS !BADLY NEEDED!!...EVEN CONSTRUCTION OF AIRPORT IN NAAL OF BIKANER IS IN PROGRESS.

WON'T TALK ABOUT OTHER MALE OR FEMALE OR KIDS OF OUR BOTH SIDES OF FAMILY OR EVEN FRIENDS...IF I HAVE ENCOURAGED,HELPED IN SOME WAY...IN THEIR PERSONAL-EMOTIONAL,PROFESSIONAL AND PHYSICAL HEALTH PROBLEMS...OR ABOUT SPIRITUAL TALK OF HEALING, WHICH PEOPLE SAY MOTIVATIONAL TALK...IN SO MANY(46) YEARS(MANY OF YOU ALL HAVE DONE THAT...SAAB KARTEIN HEIN)...THAT THEY NEED TO ACKNOWLEDGE INSTEAD OF PUTTING FINGURES ON MY DINCHARRYA/OR SOME GOSSIPS WHICH CAN BE MERE SPECULATIONS BASED OF FICTIONS...OR THEY SHOULD TRY TO GO IN DEPTH AND FIND OUT REALITIES...THEN THEY WOULD FIND SOME OF MY QUALITIES AND ACHIEVEMENTS ALSO...OR ACCEPT THAT WHAT THEY SAID WAS BASED ON FICTIONS...WHICH THEY CLAIM THEY DON'T SEE(GOOD EVEN I DON'T WANT TO SEE...IF I'LL WILL LET YOU ALL KNOW)...IT APPLIES ON BOTH SIDE OF MY FAMILY MEMBERS AND FRIENDS..."AAAROP TOOO AAROOP HOTE HEIN JAB TAK SAABIT NA HO JAYEIN...CHAHE HUM LAGAIN YA AAP...ONE CAN NOT BECOME MALLIKA SHERAWAT/MALLIYKA KHAN/..LATAJI/AASHA BHONSLE/OR ANY ONE ...LALLUJI/NITISHJI...NARENDRA MODI..NEITHER INDIRA GANDHI/NEHRU OR MAHATMA GANDHIJI JUST LIKE THAT???!!!

...BUT DEFINITLY WANTED TO BE RAGS TO RICHES(SAMRIDDH) LIKE STARS IN MANY SERIALS OR MOVIES CAN BE CONSIDERED VERY AMBITIOUS...BUT OVER DO IS BAD IN ANYTHING- EXCEPT COMEDY...OR TRYING TO CREATE SOMETHING OUT OF NOTHING.

IF I CAN MOTIVATE THEM AND MAKE THEM TO CONTRIBUTE TO SOCIETY (AS A SOCIAL WORKER)MORE THEN HOUSEHOLD WORK...WHY CAN'T I DO IT MYSELF WHO NOW HAVE A FREE TIME AND GOT A REGISTERED NGO(EARLIER WITHOUT IT I HAD WORKED) AND ITS REGISTERED OFFICIAL WEBSITE....AND ITS INITIATIVE WEBMAGAZINE-"AAWAAZ."!!!

I KNOW WHATEVER I HAVE WRITTEN IN MY BLOGS(3BLOGS) HAS HOT UP SOME OLD DAYS TALKS WHICH PEOPLE MAY HAVE FORGOTTEN OTHERWISE...BUT IT WAS IMPORTANT FOR ONCE AND FINALLY HOW "MEIN AAYEE HOON U.P./BIHAR LOOTNE"-"katcch baniyaan group"...SATYA/SHOOL/SHANTI(AND ITS DIFFERENT CHARACTERS INCLUDING TULSI,NIDHI..ETC)...TILL TODAY'S SCENE....WAS GETTING WORSE!!!BUT IN A WAY ITS GOOD THAT ALL KIND OF EXPOSE REVEALED IN/BY MEDIA...WHETHER INSPIRED BY FICTION WHICH CANNOT BE 100% TRUTH OF ANYONE'S LIFE...AS LIFE CANNOT BE SO MUCH FILMY OR MASALEDAAR BUT IT IS REALITY AND DO EXIST...!! FOR EXAMPLE CASES OF BABA'S PERSONAL LIVES/CRIME/CORRUPTION/SCAMS/SUPERTITIONS/DISASTER ETC...EMOTIONAL OUTBRUSTS/ROAD RAGE/FICTIONS/REALITY(ITS MIXTURE...AS PEOPLE STARTED LIVING IN IT AND LIKING IT)....AND NOW CLARITY THOUGH I CAN'T SAY IF ALL MISCONCEPTION HAS CLEARED OR NOT AS NO DEAL/SAUDA /CORRUPTION/CRIMINAL CASES IS ON US ...CAN'T SAY ABOUT 'KATHNI-KARNI KA FARQ'(LITTLE KABZA AT OUR RESIDENTIAL PLOT IS LEGALLY DECLARED IN OUR HOUSE TAX FORM AND WE PAY TAX FOR THAT SPACE ALSO...SO WE ARE NOT WRONG IN ANYWAY...THOUGH WE HAVE GOT OCCASIONAL NOTICES FOR HOUSE TAX OR INCOME TAXES...WHICCH FINALLY PROVED THAT WE WERE RIGHT)

... THOUGH NOT INTERESTED IN WATCHING MUCH TV ANYMORE.ITS EFFECTING MY EYESIGHTS.I DON'T FEEL SPECIAL(AS MONITORING IS NOT AN APPOINTED OFFICIAL WORK FOR ME WHICH GIVES ME CREDIT OF SOME CONSTRUCTIVE WORK..OR POSITIVITY IN LIFE!!!...THOUGH AT TIMES I DO FEEL AS IF ITS MY RESPONSIBILITY TO DO SO..ISN'T IT CRAZZY???...WHILE DOING THAT AT TIMES I WRITE COMMENTS WHILE WATCHING TV AS IF I WANT TO ANSWER BACK PERSON'S COMMENT I HAVE SEEN!!....ISN'T THAT CRAAZY??...AS I DID FEW DAYS BACK WHILE WATCHING MUSHAARAF SAHIB ON TIMES NOW!!...HIS INTERVIEW WITH ARNAB GOSWAMI AFTER WIKILEAKS HIT...AND RAHUL GANDJI'S COMMENT ON "HINDU TERRORISM IS MORE DANGEROUS" CAME)

VIBHA TAILANG